It’s pretty crazy how the Lord works.
Most of you know that my STINT year consists of 14 months total. I arrived in Buenos Aires last September and will continue my ministry here until this coming November. But, what you may not know is that each STINTer has to decide by April 1st if they would like to return for another year (well, 10 months to be specific). If we do decide to return to Buenos Aires, we’ll spend two months in the States until New Year’s, and then come back to Argentina in January of 2012.
Making this decision hasn’t been any easy one. I voiced my thoughts to most of my closest friends and my parents, but all I can say is it’s pretty crazy how the Lord works.
Before I tell you my decision, I need to say, the past 6 months of my life have been some of the most rewarding times I’ve ever had. I’ve been able to experience the Lord in really incredible ways and see Him changing lives, literally on a daily basis. Each day, my heart is becoming more and more intertwined with the culture here and I know that no matter where God might take me, Argentina will always be a part of me.
After praying about this decision and talking it out with the people around me, I finally felt like I had made up my mind.
I am not planning on re-STINTing.
I think the weight of that sentence is still sinking in. I love being here so much, but I believe the Lord is just calling me in a different direction.
Those of you who know me also know that I have been involved in ministry since I was about 15 years old. I started leading small groups my sophomore year of high school, planning big events by the time I graduated, and was later part of Crusade’s “Student Staff” Team at FSU. That being said, I think I just need a break. I never thought I would feel that way, but maybe that means it has to be from the Lord.
Don’t get me wrong… there’s plenty of ministry to be done outside of the church and outside of Christian organizations, and I don’t plan on neglecting the call to “Go and make disciples”. Nor do I plan on neglecting my involvement in the church or Crusade, but my role will look a lot differently. All I really know is that I believe He’s calling me to “Go” somewhere new. I know that Argentina is part of the great adventure that the Lord is leading me on, and I’m so blessed to have this opportunity… and am looking forward to what God wants to do in the next 7 months here!! I feel really at peace about my decision, although it breaks my heart to think about leaving.
Now, you’re probably asking… what next?
Although I don’t have any solid plans at the moment, I have been tossing around ideas of returning to school for a master’s. To my own surprise, I’ve found a lot of joy in writing these blogs and newsletters and have been exploring the idea of pursuing a career in journalism or some other form of written communication. As of now, it’s nothing more than an idea, but it’s definitely something to be praying about.
Above all things, I want the Lord to be glorified in my life and for His will to be done. I believe He has given me desires and passions that I shouldn’t neglect to pursue, but ultimately, I want His plans to be my plans, and go wherever He’s leading.
Thanks to all of you for being a source of truth, reminding me to hold onto the Lord’s promises, as well as a source of encouragement- to believe in myself and the gifts that the Lord has given me. Please continue to pray for me and for clarity as I begin to move in a new direction.
((Also, if you’re wondering about the photo, it’s from a place called Colonia in Uruguay. I felt it appropriate considering the Lord is closing one door and I’m waiting for Him to open new ones!))